Love is blinding when your timing's never right

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 03:51:05 GMT

if you didn't notice. i'm back on x crap

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 15:38:51 GMT

so my cat of 16 years, our family jewel, died yesterday. Of old age? I guess so. My sister Anna wants her cremated for Christmas. :/ a little odd to me. having your cats ashes sitting right next to you. Personally I can't stand the thought of ANYONE or ANYTHING being burnt. that is just way to graphic. I loved Bootsie way to much for common good. BUt I"m glad she is out of suffereing now, she was going through alot of pain and it's all gone :)

On another note. slightly not as despresssing? I think not. I was very upset lastnight. My solo went ok. I loved seeing all my family there and alot of my friends. but no matter how hard I try, I am always disapointed in some way. aNd this time. it was your fault, not mine.

Drama Drama Drama. Going on right now? nahhhh. not a thing. life is grand. to say simply in an amazing lie.

But I honestly don't care. I'm just gunna sit back and watch it all unfold or go right back up into a ball and everyone will forget about it. Maybe when I have some words I will speak, but rightnow, i'm a little blank.

I'm talking to Jon right now, this is good. We both need some counseling, or more just some comfort.

Well my cat Orly is standing on my arm, looking at me in the face, and rubbing its paws into my face. ahh! now he oh wait it's a she, is licking my hand. hahahh oh man. i love this cat.

good day

tell me you love me
tell me what you love about me
tell me you want to be with me
don't make me suffer from not knowing

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 06:51:18 GMT

i just watched A lot like love. It made me cry. I loved it. I can't begin to say how that story outlines my life in certain areas.... hmm

i got stuck tonight. it took a while to get out.

I did well tonight on my solo.

I dont like snow.

For soem reason after I watch love stories, i walk away being depressed. maybe because I am reminded how no one really has such a perfect ending......and its never going to happen. when do we honestly get what we have always wanted? hm. idk.

goodnight

finding love in a distant instant.............

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 05:24:30 GMT

so i'm in one of those moods. where I should just go to bed and hope that in the morning I will feel better. Because as of right now. I really really really want to see 'you' {can we just say that is like triple underlined} And I am really upset that some certain things have been going down. But I'm just going to wait a little while and hope that things will look up.

after youth tonight , I went to applebees with Mary. IT was fantastic. As if our time together never is. I'm so happy she is home. She is always right there for me. I told her I can't have sugar any more and she turns around and says, "well i'll just not eat sugar with you!" Who does that? A loving friend like her.

I went to an herbalist today {spelling???} and wow, it was amazing. that is all I have to say. If you want to hear the whole like hour long story I will give it to you.....but only in person. I'm not about to type it all out.

ok. well, goodnight

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 15:56:12 GMT

so, i decided to make a change, and to come back to livejournal.

Welcome me.

:)